Barbican Young Poets 2019-20
Ollie O'Neill
'sometimes I feel
forgiveness grow inside me / not like a disease / but a miracle child'

Listen
sometimes I feel
forgiveness grow inside me / not
like a disease / but a miracle
child
for a year after it
happened / I did nothing / but walk his
street / became a body devoted to the
god of holding / a night between the
teeth / myself from the inside out / on
my birthday I became as untouchable
as any royal thing / a well-dressed
spectre / a silk-spun spine / knocked on
every door / only to find a new year
behind each one / falling to its knees /
when nobody was looking I stopped to
consider / the first deer to develop
antlers / the lesson that taught it what
they were for / whether the doe
weeped for already knowing / I think
the difference between analogy and
metaphor / is how long it takes you to
get back on your feet / eventually I had
to pick each shard from the skin / build
myself back to origin / what broke
here? / some frosted glass throat / a
careful lyric / when I followed myself
back home / only to find the building
burning as any place does / when
entered / without permission / know I
did not flinch / just stepped over the
door / off its hinges / and kept walking
About Ollie O'Neill
Ollie O’Neill is a poet based in Brighton. She has published a pamphlet, Ways of Coping, with Out-Spoken Press. Her debut full length collection What We Are Given was published by Write Bloody UK in September 2020. In 2013, she won the UK National Youth Slam Championship. Her words have appeared in Magma, bath magg, and she has read at venues such as The Institute of Contemporary Arts, Soho Theatre, and Cheltenham Literature Festival.
Instagram: @ollieoneill
Twitter: @olliecmoneill
Website: www.ollieoneill.co.uk

